The Guillotine

I had done wrong, I realized that very well and knew that for this I would be held accountable. To be wrong in one thing is to be wrong in everything before the judge, said the prosecutor. I wanted to escape and twisted and turned all the scenarios in my head but understood that if I were to run straight into a pane of glass, the outcome would be the same. I'm going to die, I told myself, feeling fear grip my soul. I froze and shivered so that no clothes in the world could relieve it. I cried out for help but not loud enough as the guilt dampened my honest approach and I sank more and more into a resignation to my fate, I was stuck, trapped forever. Wearing handcuffs, the prosecutor led me to the guillotine. Huh, I was going to die by beheading, I thought. I felt the body that tore and pulled in another direction. - Can no one free me, I shouted. - You can help yourself, said the prosecutor. I was only a few meters from this horrendous execution apparatus when I saw myself begin to bargain with the devil. There is no way you will die if you put your head to the second guillotine, the one that says religion, catholic and neo-spirituality. Wait a bit now, I said...Is there a way out, I asked, even though the question was asked to my inner self, 100 answers came. So I still have to put my head down, I gasped. I stood to some extent beside myself and even though I thought it was fair that a punishment was meted out in this matter, I felt apathy answering that if I could still bring my conscience with me on this, surely it wasn't the whole world if I converted or became religious. It was a waste of my life. I could help others whether I became a Catholic, a philanthropist or a general churchgoer. But then I remember Sunday school about Jesus how He took the punishment so I could be free. I looked again at the guillotine and saw through it and there stood Han and just smiled at me. Now the picture started to clear up for me and I alternated my gaze between these two devices. One advocated continued life and the other faith in a better life. If I choose the guillotine that helps me now and demands of me a conversation etc. I asked o continued, -how do I know that I will survive I asked o now I meant that I wanted an answer at once as time was running out. The answer came just as quickly, -I can guarantee that in the second you will die with fasting, the devil confidently said so you have nothing to lose by taking it with religion. I thought that we would all die and while others ignore the reason, I want to do what is true for me and since Jesus has already died for me, I choose to die with Him in order to receive forgiveness. Yes, you do what you want, you fool, said the prosecutor. I looked again through the guillotine and now saw an even bigger smile from Jesus. Do you receive your salvation by dying, the devil snickered. Yes, I said, since Jesus has already died for me, I'll take the chance. I asked Jesus for forgiveness and asked him to give me birth again and felt the cold steel danger through my throat. I stood up again and wondered if my head was lying in front of me, I regained my sight and felt the life that disappeared return with a warmth that I had never had. I saw others after me how those who took the same path as me had their heads healed by Jesus. Yes, he took them from the ground and placed them on the body again and that was it. The others who took the second guillotine did escape the beheading but did not see what happened to us. We, on the other hand, had 1000 questions for Jesus about why most people took the path of preserving their lives and understood that it was in this way that they lost their lives by having the burden of debt postponed. God, I'm glad I took the path of grinding instead of the path of religion. I became a stranger to the others and they were happy and went to their natural death drunk and dancing. I felt incredibly grateful but saddened for those of you who are walking towards an uncertain fate. I can only stand here and call attention to real life, that which involves a relationship with Life itself and which takes you past death here and now.